She is someone I admire

This few weeks, I feel so crazy. I keep on thinking about her. Really don't know what's wrong with me. I think of her almost all the time, before I went to sleep, during my free time, sometimes during lesson. Then I figured out that I started to admire her after seeing her a few times around the school. She looks natural and pretty to me. But the reason I like her is not because she is pretty, but I like her naturally. At first when I haven't discover that I like her, I keep on thinking about her all the times. I don't really know how to explain this. Tuesday is the day when I can see her early in the morning. That makes me happy the whole day.

It all started when I started to use mig33 last year. Mig33 is a mobile phone software that enable you to chat with anyone who is also using it. I know her through this software. She is friendly because if I don't start a chat with her, she will start one. She want me to send my photo to her because we were in different school at that time so we haven't meet each other yet. I didn't send her any because my photo was too ugly. That's how I got her mobile phone number. I usually chat only in the night, so when she don't reply me in the chat, that indicates that she fell asleep. It's quite hard to chat with her because she seldom online. In a week, she may only go online for once or twice. Now she is studying in the same school as I do.

I usually spend time with my friend at the school canteen during my lunch time at school. But this few weeks, I feel like looking for her around the school. I don't know why but if I saw her, I will be very happy. When I first know her, I was able to treat her as my friend. But now my feeling change. It jus changes itself, I didn't force myself to like her or somthing like that. It is too natural that I didn't discover it at first. I discovered something, which makes me feel like jumping out of the window if I am in the tallest floor of the tallest building. She already have a boyfriend. I am too slow. Even she is still single, she may not choose me because there are so many guys that are far more better than me. I only can treat her as my admire, nothing more than that.

If she read this, she may say that Im crazy.....hahahaha. She may ignore, get angry or hate me if she read this, but I have to write this down in my blog, so that I feel better. I don't know wheather am I hoping that she will read this or the other way around. She don't have to worry because I won't become crazy and hunt for her. hahahaha. She will always be the one I admire.


-YK-